Enough of happiness

Not that I do not want any right now. My point being, happiness is like a drug. It makes us high and happy. Dancing away to an imaginary tune in our heads. Yet, the moment, sadness, disappointment and anger replace this happiness, we immediately go into cold-turkey mode. Shivering and yearning for happiness.

There are many books which advise us on the path of/to happiness. Books that tell us to build the right relationship, books which I thought will teach us how to cook chicken-soup, books that ask who moved our cheese and books by Dr. Phil. Seems that the path of/to happiness actually reside deep within EVERY "self-help section" of the bookstores.

Yet to be a human is to experience happiness and sadness and disappointment and anger, sometimes separately and sometimes altogether at once. That is probably why buddhists subscribe to a "don't dwell on anything, just let go". Happiness is but a temporary feeling, arising from a source, which will eventually change. We need to get away from holding on to that temporary feeling, otherwise, we will forever be trapped, trying to recreate that feeling, via relationship gurus, self-help books and self deception.

Similarly for sadness, disappointment and anger. We need to be sad and we cry. We need to be disappointed and leave. We need to be angry and fight. The verbs are just manifestation of the emotions. Like happiness, they are temporary feelings arising from a source, which will eventually change. I am learning how to forgive people more readily and to cut back on the period of my sadness, disappointment and anger. It is alright to cry, to leave and to fight. We are human. MORE importantly, we need to think and gain control of these temporary feelings. Never do things that we will regret, because the sources of these feelings have altered and new terms and conditions evolve, and eventually, we will just laugh it off and more on.

The roller coastering of my emotions has gotten the better of me. I am quite tired of it. I feel frustrated at my lack of discipline to rein in these feelings. Yes, frustration is a form of emotion.

I think I am soon becoming a rather emotionless being.